Below are the 3 most recent journal entries recorded in hathorne's LiveJournal:

Monday, March 31st, 2003
4:09 pm	inspiration is so good so bad for the now but so worth it for the then how many times were we so happy as children to get the color by number sheets though we colored the so wrong it looked so right riding this great beast i will ride it all the way to its death throes will i fall to my end beneath it or leapt nimbly from its back landing lightly as a dancer no i care for neither with the fire burning through my veins there is nothing for me but the exeleration of now the pain is gone numb is all thats left traveled so far the journey so hard for this single moment as the flower unfolds amidst the mad jungle will my actions come back to haunt me will i even care i want to bottle it the feeling of the road that makes smoking a cigarette and driving in no particular direction feel so good well things havent been so great but i am optimistic at this exact moment and if all goes well i may be able to sustain this Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: independent (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 16th, 2003
10:47 pm	feeling so good speeding so fast don't wanna die alone someone hold me oh this mad muse of mine she has captured my every thought my sould cries out axt quick and don't fall like so many times before am I blind to the truth of reality or have I finally awakened from my dream to find my princess waiting to take her place at my side lost without hope I am a man ready to be saved This has been a really exciting spring break and one that was definitely needed. better to just be happy to have known her than depressed at the knowledge it can never be Current Mood: energetic Current Music: rock (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 6th, 2003
3:10 am	Quicksilver You can never tell a person that feels alone that they aren't. If they understood that then they wouldn't feel alone. We each have to some to terms and deal with the feelings we have by ourselves. You can never give a person the answers to life or else those answers will become meaningless. Each person must find the answers themselves as they are relevant to them. There exist a basic reality that can be defined as the truth but since everyone bases reality on how they see it no one sees reality as it really is. The reality they see becomes the truth but only in regards to them. I am created And a fire is breathed Into me. Slowly I burn And times passes by. When everything burns away, There is nothing But ashes and an empty shell. If I could freeze the burning of my soul I would live forever. We are each like a cigarette which is created for one purpose, to be smoked. We are created for a purpose, to live the life set before, each moment lived for itself. Today the old confusion gripped me and I wonder which path is best for me to take. The world is so full of garbage and everytime God creates a light to shine out the garbage just exstinguish and bury that light. The very light that could have redeemed them to something more than their worthless existence. For many it isn't that they are better than others because they don't have the problems of the world it is that they recognize that they have the problems and question the world around them. I just don't know what to do. I feel stuck in some endless paradox. The only way to escape paradox is to simple relaize that they do not exist. We go along life asking so many questions that we think can't be answered and then we find the answer. However, a new problem develops because the answer is that there is no answer and in realizing this we also realize that the whole big and glorious search we went on was worthless. Current Mood: confused Current Music: independent (Comment on this)